Skin, Scars, Acne = STRESS

Hi guys..Salam...

I guess you should know what I'm going to share today. Yea, spot on! About my face now that full with acne and scars because of the stress!!!

Gosh, I'm not kidding at all. My smooth beautiful skin was gone! It was just like GAME OVER~

I have no nice face anymore, and now, I have to face the examination. Oh guys, seriously it's not funny! How I'm gonna get married with face like this. Waaarrrggghhhh~~

NOT COOL, oki!

Well, I went to see the doctor last week and here was our conversation;

Doctor; How can I help you?
Me; Oh, it's about my face. I  don't know what happen to it but I think it's because of acne. What do you think?
Doctor; Ah yea...I see..Your face..Hmm..What can I give you is maybe some antibiotics or cream.
Me; Antibiotic please doctor. I can't stand my face like this.
Doctor;*Took her medical book and start revising* Ok, this medicine is bla....bla...bla... Oki, let me check it further through internet.

*In the meanwhile*
Doctor; Where are you from?
Me; Malaysia.
Doctor; Oh, I love Malaysia so much. It was my honeymoon destination before. I went to Langkawi. *Her face and eyes still focus straightly on the computer screen*
Me;Oh, I see. I never go to Langkawi.
Doctor;Oh, you should go, it's nice. Ok, now I'm going to ask you a few questions. 1) Are you sexually active?
Me; No.
Doctor; Are you pregnant?
Me; No. *In my mind, pliz doctor, just give me the prescription. I just have the acnesssss..*
Doctor; Oraite, take this medicine 2 twice daily oki. And then come to see me again after a month.
Me; A month????That's too long doctor...
Doctor; Yea..I know, usually acne will heal within 3 months.
Me; What???Oh gosh~
Doctor; But dont worry, take this medicine first, and if it still has no effect then we'll try to think something else to treat your face, oki.
Me; Oki doctor.Tq...
Doctor; Welcome.

*Then I headed to town to buy the medicine according to the prescription given by the doctor*

And now, after a week taking this, I think my face a bit better but still, not really good. Sob2...*cries blood*

Guys, plis do pray for me ya...I want good result in the exam and I want good face condition as well..Pray for me..T_T

See you soon guys..

Love you as always,
diDiE AiNoRi

Housemate

Salam semua....

May Allah bless all of you guys...

Today, just wanna share with you how happy we will be if we have a good housemate. I did experience that. *I mean, I AM experiencing that*.I had a really good housemate named Farah. She always be nice and treat me well. Cook for me, give me some preach if I go wrong, sharing while I listen, just listen while I sharing, and list goes on....She is sooooo nice~

Like last night, as usual, she always had something sweet to give me, so tasty and fresh fruits!!!Here we go!!

Tempting huh? Oh..tq my housemate!!I love our ukhuwwah!!

Alhamdulillah~


Love you as always,
diDiE AiNoRi

Usrah

Salam semua...

Harap semua sihat walafiat hendaknya...Terima kasih buat yang masih berkunjung walaupun tiada update sangat sebulan dua ini..Huhu..Maaf ye...

Orait, yesterday I had usrah with my juniors, Rai, Rin and Ain. We actually wanted to have fun in the sun, picnic and enjoy together. So, a day before the gathering, we promised to meet each other at their hall, Walnut Hall and have picnic together at the backyard just beside their flat. We all excited to meet that tomorrow.

As a good senior, I came early and waited for them calmly on that green green grass with all sort of foods that I brought along with me. *lol*

Yeah...could you see how excited was I? I made a special cake for us, yes, just for four of us!lol~ And actually I did some egg sandwiches and brought some trifles as well;-)

But after 5 minutes waiting....

I can feel some drops of water touched my face. OMG! Raining!!! *panic*

I packed up everything and went to Ain's flat. Finally, we ended up meeting and picnic in the flat.LOL~

Soo sad..But hey, we still had had a good time together yesterday! We played Quran Challenge Games from 10 a.m till Zuhr. Subhanallah...Alhamdulillah...Got a lot of new knowledge from that game too. And Rai, Ain and Rin  actually made a lot of foods as well..*Full* Seriously~

Well guys, that's all.See ya..

Love you as always,

diDiE AiNoRi

Pass or Fail

Hi All, Salam...

Lamanya saya tak update kan? Busy? Duhh...Puhlizzz~ Am not really...But..kind of perasan busy...sigh~

Guys, you know lately, I AM soooo LAZY~ Feel like I dont wanna care about my final result. In my mind, I just said, "oki, let it be. Pass or fail, let it be. I dont even care anymore!"

Gosh, how and why on earth do I have such stupid thinking?

Am I that depressed?

Am I that fool?

Am I that useless?

Am I that crazy?

Oki, I guess, I AM too emotional. I guess I am not myself anymore. Coz I know, my old self will not say such things.

I know, my old self was really-really ambitious, focus, and eager to do the BEST.

So, after thinking awhile yesterday, I conclude that I cannot fail in this final exam coz it's not just about the result. It's more about me!!!

What will happen to me if I fail?

What will happen to my relationship with my mom if I fail? *coz you should know guys that my mom really put high  hope on me*

What will happen to the rest of my life? Will I have good friends after this if I fail my exams? or will they leave me alone? How do I face the world if I fail this important exam?

And..what will Allah think about me? Will He give me some more nikmat after this? Will He love me some more after this? Or maybe He will hate me as well like others?

Gosh~ These scary questions came to my mind yesterday and so, I think, I really2 think that I cannot live my life without good result.

I am not a high achiever, but I just cannot accept myself if I do not succeed in some important arenas, say, exams.

So, I dont wanna face that dark world...I wanna flying colours...I wanna succeed...Plz..plz..plz...now, I have less than 20 days before exam..Can I make it????

Guys, can I make it??????

Pray for me...I love myself so much and so I dont wanna make myself disappointed or upset...I wanna be happy, and happy will only come if I have good results...Guys, you maybe will say that my thinking is too simplistic or wutsoeva narrow thinking. But yea..this is me...I want to SUCCEED...

Love myself as always,

diDiE AiNoRi

Farewell Day Out (With Housemates)

Salam...updating again...On that same day with tea time party, actually my housemates and I went to Nando's, having some delicious food there. We just actually wanted to spend time together after being separated by exam's gap. Alhamdulillah, now, Kak Nida and Kak Mai finished their exams and will go back to Malaysia soon. *cries*

So, yeah...Sad and tears...But then, love has no limit, so does ukhuwwah. Only sky is the limit? No! No limit at all. Insya Allah, we will keep this ukhuwwah alive. Ameen...

Farah (left) and Kak Mai

Kak Nida(left) and me.

Peri-peri chicken. Yummy~

Mmmm..

That's all from me. How about you guys?:)

Love you as always,

diDiE AiNoRi

Tea Time Party

Salam semua...

Apa khabar? Sihat?

Me? insya Allah sihat walafiat...Hmm..Just want to share with you the pictures during the tea time party that we (me, ema and raihana) had recently. Have a look:-)

the menu was simple, my kek cinta and lemon hot tea:-)

ema was pretending to be shy2 cat..:-p

us with kak nida (the brown veil)

us with kak mai (beside ema)

Says who we cannot reach stars?? look! Ema caught two stars from the sky! *lol*

Ok, that's all, may Allah bless each one of you.Ameen...

Love you as always,

diDiE AiNoRi

Shopaholic:-P

Salam semua...

Huu...Hari ni hari Selasa. Hari last update hari Ahad. Bermakna semalam saya tak update apa-apa...Oh..So sorry...

Ok, so, jom bercerita semalam apa saya buat?:-)

Well, pagi tu saya skype dengan my sister, my eldest sister. She's a doctor at HKT. Guess what? Dulu saya ingat profession doktor ni best, sebab dapat gaji banyakkkkkk....

But after I had a chat with my sister yesterday, I just realized that she was sooooo extremely tired.*Exausted to death* Sigh...Pity her..She must be so strong and tough yeah?Huu...Salute ahhh...Kalau saya, mahu saya bakor aje hospital tu..hahahaaa...

Hmm..after having chat with her, I went to town, gi collect photo book yang saya tempah hari tu untuk majlis pertunangan my sister. Alhamdulillah, puas hati! Cun! Suka-suka...lalala~:-)

And then, after that, headed to center of town. Then you should know what will happen when a shopaholic girl like me was in the middle of the marvellous town:-) Gosh~~~~

My money flew away like a river. Or flied away like a bird if you like.LOL

Mmm..But no worries, I actually shop for my sister wedding. I bought her shoes, handbag and perfume. Hoommmmaaaiiiii...Sooo tired.You know, it is not easy to find something on behalf of others? I need to take many things into account. The colours, the style, the material, and the look. So, to be safe, instead of pink or elegant blue, I chose black.Haha... and I was just like a model myself in front of the mirror at shopping complex yesterday.

I can't believe it myself doing this thing. Suddenly, I feel like it was my wedding!Hahaha..Berangan!*slap my forehead*

Oh..oki, so,natijahnya, bila saya bangun pagi ni, habis satu badan saya sakit-sakit.Oh...Ingat apa?Habis urat-urat kaki, tangan dan pinggang saya terseliuh taw berposing kat depan cermin tu.Ohhhh~~~*cry*

But don't worry, it was fun! and I am happy to do something for my sister. May Allah bless her wedding and soon give me a good husband.Ameen..:-P

These are the stuffs. All black! Except for the perfume.:-)

psst..I really love this shoes. So, if she did not like it, I'm happy to adopt this baby:-)

Ok, that's all from me.See you soon.I love you..Salam...


Love you as always,
diDiE AiNoRi

Kulukis Cinta...

Salam semua..Sorry, tajuk di atas agak jiwang.ahaks~

Hmm..memandangkan semenjak dua menjak diari ini kelihatan agak tegang, so, hari ni, saya mahu tukar mood kita semua. Jom, layan gambar terbaru hasil kerja tangan saya *dengan bantuan Allah tentunya*; ENJOY~

Psst....saya tido pukul 3 pagi taw nak siapkan benda ni.hihi..Sebab dah start buat pukul 10.30 malam macam tu..Mmm...kulukis rasa cintaku di atas sebiji kek.:-)Nikmatilah!



Love you as always,
diDiE AiNoRi

Monolog Hati Seorang Didie

Huu...Astaghfirullah3x....

Wahai Didie Ainori yang manis, tanya hatimu sendiri, apa yang kau rasa sekarang?

Tawar kan?

Tade rasa kan?

Nothing kan?

Tak kisah kan?

Hmm...ya, kerana sabar itu lebih mudah daripada bersyukur, maka bersabarlah wahai Didie Ainori yang manis. Engkau terlalu manis untuk merasakan kepahitan. Jadi engkau tidak pantas untuk merasakan itu. Sebab itu, tanyakan hatimu sekali lagi. Apa yang kau rasa sekarang?

Tak rasa apa-apa.

Biasa je.

Tak marah?

Tak.

Tak terasa?

Tak.

Tak rasa tercabar?

Tak.

Tak rasa kecik hati?

Tak.

Tak rasa geram macam nak makan orang?

Tak.

Tak rasa emo?

Tak. (oki, sikit..)

Hmmm....ok, so, kesimpulannya, Didie Ainori yang manis, anda masih normal. Kalau tak normal, sila kembali kepada Allah. Sebab, hanya Allah yang tahu semua benda tentang hamba-hambaNya. Ya, hanya Allah. Sakit, demam, pening, tekanan dan semua penyakit-penyakit lain yang orang lain tak nampak tapi kau merasa, semua Allah tahu. So, kuatkan keyakinanmu kepada Allah yang Satu.

"For only in the rememberance of Allah, do heart finds rest."

*still, tak rasa apa-apa....*

Love myself as always,
diDiE AiNoRi

Spring Season!

Salam semua...

How are you today guys? Fine, great, fresh, strong? Hihi...I hope so. Me fine, insya Allah. Just wanna let you know that we finally SPRING here in UK! Alhamdulillah. But there are still not many flowers blossom yet. Coz baru nak start spring kan. However, luckily, I've got some pictures to show you what I've found today at  uni. Look!

So beautiful, isn't it?

Zoom in the yellow flowers.

The wonderful pink flowers. *my favourite colour ok!* 

(sorry, quite bias with pinky things. haha)

Red one.

Purple in action! hihi

Jangan tak tahu, bunga warna biru pun ada taw!;-)

And this is the modest flowers, white colour. Sooooo pretty! Subhanallah...

See, bunga-bunga baru nak berputik....Masya Allah... Cantik...

Ni overview kat belakang uni. Cantik kan?:-)

Yea..tu je bunga-bunga yang ada setakat ni. Nanti bila bunga dah start tumbuh betul-betul saya share lagi ye. Ok, sesambil enjoy the flowers tu, jangan lupa to enjoy the moments in your life as well. Stay smile ok! May Allah bless each one of you. Till we meet again! *hugs*

Love you as always, 

diDiE AiNoRi

I'm just a Didie

Didie rasa tenang...Tenang dalam kesesakan...Kesesakan yang mungkin jika dia adalah Didie yang dulu, pasti menangis tersedu-sedu...

Tapi Didie yang hari ini takkan begitu lagi. Didie yang hari ini adalah Didie yang teguh pada pendiriannya. Didie yang hari ini adalah Didie yang tidak akan membazirkan stok air matanya untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia...

Suatu waktu dulu, Didie sudah berjanji bahawa dia takkan sekali-kali memandang ke belakang lagi. Tak kira walau apapun terjadi, Didie akan tetap kukuh berdiri. Didie sudah berjanji tidak akan membenarkan seorang pun menyakiti hati kecilnya. Didie sudah bertekad takkan menjadi lemah hanya kerana halangan-halangan yang kecil.

Didie sudah berjanji untuk tabah dan berharap hanya pada Allah. Didie kini tak sama lagi dengan Didie yang dulu. Didie kini tak kisah lagi apapun yang manusia akan katakan padanya. Didie dah janji takkan ambil pusing!

Didie tahu, kalau ini adalah dia yang dulu, pasti dia sudah berendam air mata duka. Silap-silap haribulan, bermandikan air mata darah. Ah, Didie sekarang tak selembik itu!!

Didie yakin dengan Allah.

Didie yakin Allah tak pernah zalim.

Didie yakin Allah sangat sayangkan Didie.

Didie yakin Allah sentiasa ada sesuatu untuknya.

Didie yakin Allah merahsiakan hikmah yang besar di sebalik semua ini.

Didie yakin, yakin sangat-sangat. Sebab itu Didie tak nak rasa apa-apa. Biarlah. Biarlah ujian Allah berbicara dengan Didie.

Didie mahu jadi hamba Allah yang kuat yang disukai Allah.

Didie senyum. Senyum yang benar-benar senyum. Allah, genggamlah jiwa Didie...

Kerana Didie hanya seorang Didie dan pasti akan jatuh tanpa Allah di sisi.

Luahan yang tak kesampaian

Cuti musim panas sudah hampir tiba ke penghujung. Alhamdulillah, banyak yang telah aku pelajari sepanjang cuti ini. Walaupun aku miss dua pertiga daripada program tarbiyyah, namun aku yakin bahawa semua ini ada hikmahnya.

Ya, sepanjang 3 bulan ini, aku benar-benar tidak ke mana-mana. Banyak terperap di rumah, menghabiskan masa dengan keluarga tercinta. Aku biarkan kakak ku yang seorang itu pergi ke mana saja program yang dia mahu dan aku pula dengan rela hati menawarkan diri menjadi cover line di rumah untuknya.

Cover line dalam erti kata agar mak aku tak de la terasa sangat anak-anak tak ade kat rumah...

Sekurang-kurangnya, aku tetap ada menemani walaupun, aku ni tak de la membantu sangat.

Hehe...

Barang-barang yang hendak dibawa belum pun seratus peratus aku kemaskan. Itulah piawaian kesungguhan aku nak fly atau tak. Bahkan baju yang aku nak pakai esok pun belum kugosok lagi. Aduhai Adilah, apa nak jadi dengan kamu ni...

Dulu, waktu tengah cuti, terasa lama sangat berada di Malaysia. Sekarang, sudah tinggal beberapa jam lagi untuk terbang, aku jadi macam cacing kepanasan pula. Itulah manusia. Suka tak puas hati dan menyalahkan masa. Kalau silap hari bulan, dengan cuaca-cuaca sekali jadi mangsa!

Manusia memang sifatnya tergesa-gesa. Dan mungkin aku pun termasuk dalam kategori itu juga , agaknyalah. Kalau tak selalu pun, sekali-sekala. Dah namanya pun aku manusia kan. Maka, sama sajalah sifatnya.

Ermm...ermm..ada sesuatu yang ingin diuluahkan..Tetapi, ,mengingatkan tak semua luahan boleh dikongsikan, jam lah pulak otak aku ni. Adeeh...

Tak mengapalah, biar saja aku kongsikan dengan si Pemberi masalah, Allah.

Dia mesti lebih tahu kan? OKlah, doakan esok aku fly dengan selamat!

Kenapa kadang-kadang....

Salam...

Hmm...Astaghfirullah...Astaghfirullah..Astaghfirullah...

Aku snanye in a senget state ni...huhu...

Orang kata kalau senget2 tak elok tulis entry, nati kluar tah hape2...huhu..

Tapi tak kire, nak tulis gak!!

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni, bila dia dewasa, dia masih lagi nak wat perangai budak2,huh?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni dengki pada yang xpatot?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni cemburu buta?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni dia mengata orang yang lebih, tapi diri sendiri xsedar pulak!

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni senget benget?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni sukar menerima hakikat?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni suka rasa terikat?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni suka pada benda yang tak patot pon dia suka?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni dia tak tahu nak define perasaan dia sendiri?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni fikir apa yang dia fikir tu la yang terbaik?

Kenapa kadang-kadang manusia ni....haishhh...

Entah, baik berenti merepek.Ngaji quran lagi bagos!huhu...

Digging into my heart....

Salam....

Hello to all my family and friends....

How do you do now?

Are you doing fine?

Well, I hope you guys did great coz I was not really good along this week.

And I do hope that I will function well again as soon as possible because my new work is waiting for me and it's really really just around the corner and I do need to behave like 22-year-old-girl and be able to handle my routine appropriately.

Sometimes, I was confused. I did not know what happened to me and it was just happen. I did not know whether it was because of the old story or it was just me.

And when it happens, I just think like I want to get a supernanny to handle me and guide me and supply me with such a motivation and give the right method for me to carry on with my life.

I know it is not good to tell much about myself but consider that this is my diary, then I think it is OK to write anything that I feel here. It is my place to figure out what is spinning and revolving around my head right now and a space to help me to make things clearer and smoother to myself.


.::::Now, I'm trying to bring chaos to the order::::...

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Life is not just about a dream. Life is all about the spirit and character. Life is a battle and it is not a gamble. We live our lives with love. We carry on our life with the other people by exchanging some phrases of appreciations and that was the thing that I always always failed to do.

It is somehow easy to write and to read the theories rather than imply those theories themselves into our life.

It needs a so-called little sacrifice to make ourselves be more approachable and more reachable to the people around us. And that sacrifice always puts me in pain. I do not know how I could be more available to the people without sacrifice my own nature.

Or...maybe I am a bit selfish.

Well..perhaps..BUT... On my defense, sometimes, you will feel tiring of giving. Now you feel like receiving. You don't want to give too much anymore. You just feel like it is time for you to have your own time, to treat your own self, to ignore anything and everything that is happening around you.

You just need some time to find yourself back and you just need to be alone to deal with it.

And when it comes to this point, I am not sure whether this is what I really want. Or is this really the way that I need to behave? Or is this the right thing that I am thinking about?

And, when I'm not so sure, then the things start to turn upside down.

I'll get so upset and frustrated coz I feel like no one hears me, no one understands me and I just feel like the big force exerted on my head and because of that incredible force, the bad feeling just sink deeply into myself and then I became more frustrated.

Hmm...without knowing how to deal with this kind of stress, I became more stressful.

So what I did was trying to think of something that makes me happy and trying to do some shopping and be with the people that I love to be with.

It kind of works sometimes but not most of the times.

So what do I need to do??

Well maybe I need to train myself to be more supportive to the other people without sacrifice too much from my side.

Or maybe I need to go back to basic.

So, what is the basic then? Allah, of course.

Well, I'll work for it in order to make myself feel good and better.And move from better to outstanding.

Believing that I'm not dealing this alone but with Allah does help me much.

Ok, it's a late night now. Better get enough sleep and ready for tomorrow. Hmm...night peers....Salam....

2cents from me..=)

Salam mahabbah dari bumi barokah, leicester, UK...

what I gonna say this time?

Well, learn many thing in this whole busy week.

There's so many things yet to settle sampai tak tau pun berita yang Chong Wei menang All England yesterday. Huhu..Busy la sangat...aisey...

Last Monday, Ema and me went to see our personal tutor, Dr Mervyn Roy coz we got stuck doing programming.

Hmm..learn something always from him. He just took a few minutes to solve our probs and he really I said, got a good akhlak compare to muslim (or else, compare to me!) Huhu..comparison lagi..=P

Well, what I want to stress here, sometimes, I really felt pity towards the good people like my lecturer just now. Coz, they're good people (seriously, omputih ramai yang bagos!), but then they're not muslims...

Huhu..kan bagus kalau mereka dapat merasa nikmat iman dan islam, like I did...

Akhlak.

Masih belajar mencontohi peribadi-peribadi hebat itu. (personally, saya rasa, itu yang orang Melayu kehilangan. stress here, org MELAYU kehilangan, Akhlak.)

Hm.. how to be a good profesional Muslim?

Am I trying?

Yeah..sort of..But still banyak lompang..Alamaks!!

Hurm..tadi g town, bereskan permintaan ibu ayah. Pastu baca semua email2 yahoo groups yang sangat banyak itu dan mereply mana yang patut.. Huhu..Perlu jadi lebih tersusun ni... saya memang fail bab2 baca dan reply email. Huh... (mengeluh lagi!=P)

Lagi, what more I learnt?

#Mati itu datang bebila masa - baca sal baby mati didera. Innalillah..muda2 da meninggal...

#Musibah itu bertimpa tanpa dipinta- jiran saya kat kampung baru accident tadi.kesian....

#Bahagia itu tak selalu menyapa - kena sentiasa ready utk menghadapi tekanan mendatang

#Jangan malu bertanya- bukan senang saya n ema nak g jumpa personal tutor taw!keh3..

#ukhuwwah itu complex- ni tak nak komen. kome akn paham sendiri seiring usia=)

Okey, tu dulu dari saya,

Didie

Just a short break!

Salam...

Never share stuffs like this before.

But previously, my group and I did a research on spacecraft imaging system. Below was the experimental set up for our profound experiment.*lol*

We used 2 webcams to take 2 different pictures for the same object (ie; left and right) and tried to construct the 3D images from the pictures we took.

We need to copy the right image on the left image to make it as one layer after recolourising the right image with blue color and the left image with the red color.

Well, it was very fun messing around with the picture processor, creating so-called 3D images. Haha... Here the results came.........

I'd like this pic so much! You need to wear anaglyphs glasses in order to see the 3D effects.

I'd love this too, but the depth effect was quite poor in this image, rite?

The keyboard quite 3D at the centre of the image but again poor effect at the edge.

In conclusion, Physics actually have so much fun and interesting stuffs to explore! Right ema? hehe..=P

Below is our brand new coming research project... Investigating the refractive index of the dry and wet sand using infra red, microwave and visible light. Huh....

I didn't get when the demonstrator asked my group to create a computer programming to analyse the result from this experiment...Huhu..I'm very poor at programming.=(

autumn in my heart....

Kenapa mesti gambar kucing? ntahlaa...>>>ema, jawab!!!

Sebulan sudah saya di UK untuk tahun kedua ini....

Muhasabah kembali....

Kalau di tahun pertama, saya masih sedang terkial-kial menyesuaikan diri pada hari genapnya sebulan di UK. Tapi hari ini, saya beda....

Banyak bedanya....

Adilah yang dulu, tidak sama dengan Adilah yang kini...

Alhamdulillah, itu tandanya saya belum menjadi manusia celaka!

Bukankah hari ini harus lebih baik dari semalam? =)


Berbalik ke minggu pertama tahun kedua di UK.

Sesampainya dari Malaysia, saya terus menuju ke rumah baru di Windermere Street. Tiba saja di rumah, saya disambut adik2 first year yang menginap di rumah kami untuk beberapa malam. Waktu tu saya pun terdetik; "oh, dah senior rupanya aku! huhu...."

Rasa penat tak terasa bila melihat wajah-wajah polos adik2 first year yang masih homesick dan manja-manja. Hmm... sume perlukan perhatian senior.

Seminggu pertama saya sangat sibuk. Menguruskan adik2 dan study.

Minggu kedua saya diberi amanah untuk menjadi project director bagi program BOOM! untuk student di leicester, especially adik2 junior...

Alamak, bertambah lagi kesibukan!

Mampukah saya menggalas semuanya??

Ah, tipu kalau tiada tekanan. Tetapi semua itu adalah tarbiyyah langsung daripada Allah.

2minggu bertungkus-lumus bersama AJK2 lain untuk merealisasikan BOOM! akhirnya berbaloi....

Alhamdulillah....semua berjalan lancar, Allah menolong, dan Allah melindung....

Walaupun bekerja dengan orang yang tak sama wavelenght, tapi saya sangat suka dengan potensi2 hebat dan kualiti2 bernilai yang mereka ada. Banyak yang saya pelajari daripada sosok2 hebat itu.

Saya personally enjoy bekerja dengan mereka. Sungguh, pengalaman menjadi pengarah projek kali ini amat memberi kesan mendalam kepada hati saya.

Benarlah, semua orang harus diberi peluang untuk beraksi dan mencoret bakat.

Tidak kira mereka itu ikhwah atau bukan ikhwah. Akhowat atau bukan akhowat. Itu tidak penting. Yang penting, percaya bahawa kita semua harus diberi peluang dan yakin akan kebolehan yang ada pada setiap manusia.

Ya, saya dapat mengesan penyakit yang menimpa sesetengah ikhwah dan akhowat kita iaitu mudah BERSANGKA BURUK kepada 'group lain'.

Mungkin kerana kita terlalu atau selalu berada dalam group yang kecil, dalam circle kita-kita saja, seputar itu-itu juga.

Sehingga kita merasakan bahawa group kitalah yang terbaik dan boleh bekerja dengan paling baik dan orang lain tidak boleh menjadi sebaik kita.

Hmm...ini terjadi...terjadi dalam kalangan kita tanpa disedari....

Padahal, sedarlah, sebahagian prasangka itu adalah dosa....

Maka marilah kita sama-sama membersihkan tanah hati kita daripada lalang-lalang dan semak samun dosa yang tumbuh di tanah gersang hati kita. Mari kita siram tanah hati kita dengan benih-benih mahmudah dan kita kutip semua batu-batu dosa yang berat menimbun dalam hati dan kita gantikan dengan baja iman dan taqwa.

Semoga pohon yang tumbuh nanti adalah pohon-pohon keimanan dan keikhlasan yang segar dan sihat. Moga tanah hati kita basah dengan hujan zikrullah....

Jauhkan sangka buruk.

Dakwah itu seribu cara.

Jangan terlalu taksub dengan satu cara.

Jangan terlalu jumud pada satu rasa.

Kita semua berbeda dalam banyak perkara.

Maka raikanlah perbedaan itu.

Manusia senang jika diraikan.

Dan sangat suka jika menerima.

Mungkin kita harus lebih banyak bersabar dengan memberi.

Kerana mereka belum mengerti.

Jadilah sedikit manusiawi tanpa mengorbankan ukhrawi.

Bingkisan hati ini, ingatan untuk kita dan diri sendiri...

Moga ikatan ini kekal selamanya....

Saya sayang ikhwah akhowat semua....

Dan saya sayang juga sahabat2 saya yang lain...

Saya gembira dengan bimbingan kalian, tetapi kadang-kadang saya juga punya pendapat dan pandangan sendiri.

Maafkan kalau saya tidak selari dalam beberapa hal.

Hmm....

Kini sudah tamat minggu keempat, maknanya sebulan genap saya di UK. Saya harap saya akan menjadi lebih matang dalam membuat keputusan, lebih sensitif dalam membaca hati orang, lebih faham akan liku-liku di dunia dan saya amat berharap agar Allah sentiasa memimpin saya di jalanNya..

Ameen.....

(Ah...musim luruh dalam hatiku!!!Apakah akan terjadi pada minggu-minggu mendatang?Wallahualam....)=P

Memberi untuk Berkongsi

Mari kita berkongsi beberapa kilasan bahasa=)

-jangan mencari isteri yang cantik, tetapi carilah kecantikan si isteri.

-biar diri tidak dihargai tapi jangan diri tidak lagi berharga.

-Memberi maaf untuk dimaafkan=)

-Manusia ikhlas, hanya mepunyai satu Tuhan. Sebaliknya manusia yang tidak ikhlas mempunyai beribu-ribu 'tuhan kecil' untuk dijaga.

-lakukan perkara yang orang 'biasa-biasa' buat supaya kita menjadi luar biasa!

-Menyayangi untuk disayangi

-Menghargai untuk dihargai

-Meraikan untuk dirai

-Memahami untuk difahami

-Tujuan menentukan keperluan.

-Pastikan yang mana alat dan yang mana matlamat.

Akhir sekali, ingin saya kongsikan di sini kata-kata hikmah daripada Imam Ibnu Qayyim Al-Jauzi. Kata beliau;

"Seseorang itu akan jadi sakit jiwa jika mengharapkan ucapan terima kasih daripada orang lain kerana ketahuilah, tidak ramai manusia di dunia ini yang tahu berterima kasih!!"

Laporan Dari Besut

salam alaik buat semua..

hari kesepuluh berada di rumah. Well, it's a great experience I can say. Everything is just very cool at home except for.... erm.. sorry, I can't tell ya about that. So far, I have to zip it. Maybe, one fine day, I'll be able to tell public the whole story. (haha..poyo..)

Hurm... At home, I need to struggle to be ghuraba because the environment doesn't support me much as much as I was in UK. It's norm then and definitely challenge my IMAN.

Huh, talking about iman, I just remember about Malaysia TV programmes which are 99.9% nonsense. Most of the TV programmes enough to make me feel DISSAPOINTED.

Negara ISLAM???

Is it??

What type of negara Islam that you're talking and defending about?

There's no signs of negara Islam at all.

With the teribble TV programme and horrible attitudes of the citizens, I obviously can't see negara Islam in it.

hrmm..amat sgt menyedihkan and I've to deal with it.

List of rancangan TV yang sgt terok:

1) Banyak cerita hantu. ie: pontianak, hantu geweh, hantu pocong dll.
2)Banyak Iklan2 bogel. ie: pakai bju mcm tak payah pakai je....
3)pengisian kanak2 yang tak berapa meransang minda berfikir.
4)drama2 yang lansung tak menggambarkan identiti Islam sebaliknya sgt bercampur aduk (jahil+alim)
5)dan bayank lagi la. penat nak describe sumenye.

however, the point is that the 'TV Perils'

hurm...banyak lak berleter sye ni.hehe..pepon, I just want to burst my feelings out on my own blog. I think it isn't a fault, is it?

'Ala kullihal, setakat ni dulu dari saye... doakan saya siapkan kerja2 sye ye..

Aku Bahagia..

tenang.

damai.

tenteram.

Inilah perasaan saya sepanjang 8 hari di kampung halaman.

Best sgt balik kampung.can't be described by any words. It's very different when you're surrounded by your own family. Well, after all, I feel so bliss and bless to be at home.

With the ayam,lembu,kambing and not to forgot the two cute kucings make me become soooooo cheerful.....

Ok, setakat ini dulu laporan dari besut, trg,Malaysia.

p/s: Saya tgh struggle cri kerja=)